All on Madison's Poems.... except her poem on paper to organize....
One Day at a Time for Today on 6.30.24 was for HER.
THE One Day at a Time from Daddy's on 7/4/24 was for ME.
THIS is about her 11 poems. THIS is about letting her know I HAVE THEM ALL. This is about what I've always known what exactly ... and do NOT go to this place...............DO NOT READ WHAT THIS ............... What I NEVER STOPPED BEING SO BEYOND BALLISTIC ...
THIS IS NOW about HOW I CAN HELP HER FIND HER WAY BACK HOME
First I have to make this point with knowing & understanding her then even more with having her 11 poems with thinking using her principal's "MY WHY's" involving NVC with Universal NEEDS & FEELINGS.
This One Day at a Time, Maybe Re-Baptised, Her 11 Poems, Artist Statement, Her Artwork, How her Artwork Has Been Used, Where she got her creativity, NOW & THEN Theme.
June 23, 2024 Re-Baptized
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READ (Al-Anon - PAA's subsitite) on June 30. 2024 and knew this is what I needed to send Madison. Knew I was ready to tell her that I have her 11 poems but then struggled what/how to do that the right way and didn't send her this on that day. I've been struggling with this on top of having her poems since they were her final submission right before she graduated high-school May 31, 2023.
Tonight, July 3. 2024 I opened Daddy's One Day at a Time book that sits out on my desk. THAT is BELOW... just send SEND HER THIS tomorrow (too late right now) with whatever I come up with tonight that I'm not going to over-think anything and realize what I just read is AGAIN exactly what I've been asking God... praying for... to give me guidance on. ........... HANG ON... I AM ALREADY STUCK... I AM A HYPHRACIATE SAYING ANYTHING ABOUT GOD BEING THERE WHEN I DIDN'T BELIEVE IT FOR A DECADE AND EVERYTHING THAT FAILED HER THAT SHE TOO BELIEVED ME TELLING HER... and everything in daddy's book that was dead on until i read "the program" teaches and it just turns me so off.... like I turn myself so off trying to out loudly say gods words, being rebaptipsed to anyone ....not willing to let anyone even attempt to shread a ounce of what means my world ...
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(ok, ask/talk to Stacy about this... In those mere hours after she was taken and I had been able to tell her that .............. TALK TO GOD EVERY NIGHT....even though she couldn't/wouldn't be able to tell mommy a lot of these things, she has God to talk to WHAT
I was writing M about me telling her she can talk to God about anything and everything no matter what for any reason and aust like talking with a ..)
​Taken from One Day at a Time for TODAY.
"While walking through the woods one day, I was surprised to hear a child's voice. I followed the sound, trying in vain to understand the child's words. When I spotted a girl perched on a rock, I realized whty her words had made no sense: she was repeating the alphabet. "Why are you saying your ABC's so many times?" I asked her. The child replied, "I'm saying my prayers." I couldn't help but laugh. 'Prayers? All I hear is the alphabet.' Patiently the child explained, "Well, I don't know all the words, so I give God the letters. God knows what I'm trying to say."
Years ago, when my grandmother told me this story, it meant very little to me, but the spiritual life I've found (in Recovery) has given it a new meaning. Today the story reminds me that prayer is for me, not for God, who knows what I'm going through without explanation. With prayer, I say I am willing to be helped. The meaning behind my prayers comes from my heart, not from my words.
Today's Reminder:
Prayer is my most personal form of communication. I can pray by consciously thinking, writing, creating, feeling, and hoping. Whether I reach deep inside myself or turn outward toward the majesty of nature, it is the spirit of prayer rather than its form that matters. Today I will let my heart speak.
.............Madison, You don't remember ​me telling you (teaching you) how you can talk to God
.............Madison. God has ALWAYS known what we both have gone through & what each of us was trying to say but not allowed to communicate. And when you couldn't see me, I was still there.
From Daddy's One Day at a Time
7/3/2024
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Reflection for the Day
Change is part of the flow of life. Sometimes we're frustrated because change seems slow in coming. Sometimes too, we're resistant to a change that seems to have been thrust upon us.
We must remember that change, in and of itself, neither binds us nor frees us. Only our attitude towards changes binds or frees us.
As we learn to flow with the stream of life, praying for guidance as to any change that presents itself - praying, also, for guidence if we want to make a change and none seems in view - we become willing.
Am I willing to let God take charge, directing me in the changes I should make and the actions I should take?
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Today I Pray
When change comes too fast - or not fast enough - for me, I pray I can adjust accordingly to make use of the freedom (the program) offers me. I pray for the guidance of (my Higher Power) God when change presents itself - or doesn't and I wish it would. May I listen for direction from that Power.